Monday, March 18, 2013

Hopes and Dreams

I’ve always been a dreamer. Since as long as I can remember they’ve been there to comfort me. My dreams. My thoughts. That was the purpose of writing. To put them all down. To remember them. I let my words fall across a page, but lately that has meant they’ve been leaving my heart. Writing has become more about what I’m doing than about what I believe.

See a part of me believes that the only reason I’ve gotten this far is because I was chasing after dreams. I got an idea in my head and I ran with it. When I got there I’d chase another one and low and behold… Eventually I looked down and my feet were on the sunny beaches of California.

I can’t say I ever dreamt I’d be here as a child. It was many years later after the dream evolved. Doors closed, others opened and the next thing I knew I was an intern in Los Angeles California… But there I go again. Talking about what I’m doing, Life isn’t about what you’re doing. What you’re doing is so minute. It’s so irrelevant to the bigger picture. What you’re doing is in this moment alone. Now I’m not saying this moment isn’t important, because it is. Many people say you should live in the moment. I agree. But you should dream in the future, and never the past. Dreams are for where we’re going. Not where we’ve been.

They’re funny things, dreams. They allow us to go places and imagine things that we never thought could be possible. Things that might never be real. What they also do is provide us with structure, as strange as that may seem.

After Graduation, I often found myself longing for the comfort of a syllabus. I ached for that structure and discipline needed to accomplish the tasks laid out before me. It took me a long time to realize that I can do that for myself.  By dreaming, I give myself boundaries. I identify my obstacles and mentally formulate ways to defeat them in order to achieve that dream. It’s a beautiful thing really. Having control over your own destiny. Even now I am lying in bed contemplating what to do next. Laundry? Watch my fourth episode of Nashville? Write more? Each of these decisions has a different outcome. Each option has a result that will then trigger other decisions, and before you know it you find yourself on the cusp of your dream. Either that or you will have dreamt so much, that that dream has evolved.

My dreams are evolving. In four days I will leave my internship. I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to work with such incredible people and learn so much.  It’s definitely not a task for the weak, but completing it has made me stronger. On the 28th I will leave for England. It will be my first time outside of the United States, and to be honest it still feels like a dream. I have accomplished so much. Even over the last few months.

My girlfriend’s sister is getting married, so we’re taking the trek overseas to greet her family and offer our congratulations. It will be an incredible experience. A wonderful moment that I am happy to share with my love.  When I return, I’ll be starting my new job. I’m going to be a production assistant for a reality show called Flipping Vegas. It’s one step in the right direction. I know it’s the right one, because I’ll be moving forward in my life.

A lot of people think that life is about change, but it’s not. You don’t have to be different. You don’t have to start over. In order to make the most out of life, you don’t begin again. YOU GROW.

You develop.

You take what you know, and add to it. You push yourself to learn from what you’ve done and adapt.  Each of us is capable of being the best version of ourselves that we can be. We don’t push to be someone else, or someone better. We give it everything we have, and come out happy and alive. A positive attitude is one of the best things you can have along this journey.

We are capable. We are strong. We are enough. Now, let’s be more than that.

Instead of being capable. Let’s follow through. Instead of being strong. Let’s apply that strength and commit to ourselves. Instead of being enough… Let’s be more than that. Let’s be enough, and then some. Then let’s be the support that it takes to help others achieve that same level of greatness. Let’s be an inspiration. Make a commitment with me to help yourself and others. Follow through with that commitment. Inspire those around you, and when you look back… No one will be behind you. They’ll be right there by your side. The best feeling you’ve ever had will be knowing that you’re on top of your life, and you’ve brought those you love along with you.

In the instance that you try to inspire someone, and they deny your help, you have to remember that you can only help those willing to help themselves.

So here’s where we are at. I’ve struggled with time lately. I’ve not gotten to write as much as I wanted. I’ve been tied up with work, and moving (again), as well as life in general. I’ll be documenting my trip to England on Twitter, Instagram, and The Graduates Guide. You can also see more of my trip by following my girlfriend @SaxonJOfficial. I’ll otuch base with you guys again before I leave on March 28th.

Follow along with our journey.

Come with me.


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